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Okay exam is next week but yeah i'm here wanting to rant about everything pasal today's government. I really like really need my dose of political talks ni haihhhh.. cuma skrg susah sbb i cannot find someone who is intensely into political stuffs like i do.

Before starting all that, bare in mind that this is all my personal opinions. it may be biased, but yalah suda nama dia personal opinion kan.. what do u expect? semua orang ada opinion masing2.. freedom of speech kan like selalu dicanang Pakatan Harapan before this.. cis writing their name seja pun bikin sakit hati suda haihh

Lets talk about my least favourite (baca: paling nda suka!) kementerian ever in history. Ministry of Finance.. i admit selama ni aku mmg jenis yg x follow pembentangan bajet sbb i know mmg xda kaitan with me pun, i'm more to following updates dari news.. pembentangan bajet tu lama gila kot sempat aku habis tgok anime 2 episod hahaha..tpi semenjak tukar government ni, i tend to be more interested, yalah dulu bukan main lagi dorg canang PM kita membazir la apa la padahal, i feel like, yes u pay GST, but then dapat balik jugak nilai tu (BR1M, BB1M and so many other incentives especially utk golongan susah, like us yg students n B40 groups).. katanya laaa all those incentives tu sebenarnya mau pancing undi hnns hnss,, beli undi pakai duit rakyat, begitulah. pastu dorang, especially your beloved Finance Minister, Mr Lim Guan Eng and his alliance, Mr Tony Pua cakap yg GST tu meningkatkan harga barang. i admit mmg la some harga barang naik, tpi xda la terasa sangat sebenarnya.. at least dia naik pun, Maggi Kari harga dia still RM3.50 or paling mahal pun RM4.00.. ok my cut of point is Maggi Kari la sbb staple kan for us yg student ni.. mau fancy sikit, ok letak la telur.. yg barang basah lain, i don't want to touch sbb tu masuk dlm harga kawalan under KPDNKK.. i'm talking abt barang yg x bole di kawal terus oleh KPDNKK which is Maggi Kari. 

And now, harga dia RM4.50 ya gais.. punya la me terkejut ! and the price got increase lepas GST dimansuhkan and SST diperkenalkan semula.. yes we have that tax holiday, tpi mcm teda apa2 ni rasa dia.. Harga Tealive la murah dlm 80 sen gitu kalau nda silap.. yalah those fancy2 drinks mana laa kami yg marhaen ni afford hari2 kan.. so who benefited the most from tax holiday? I leave it for you to think about it.

Don't laugh okayy.. ni serious matter ni.. i mean, student mana seja yg x consume this maggi.. jdi staple suda for us bila dompet nipis mcm sayap butterfly..

And now, harga dia RM4.50 ya gais.. punya la me terkejut ! and the price got increase lepas GST dimansuhkan and SST diperkenalkan semula.. yes we have that tax holiday, tpi mcm teda apa2 ni rasa dia.. Harga Tealive la murah dlm 80 sen gitu kalau nda silap.. yalah those fancy2 drinks mana laa kami yg marhaen ni afford hari2 kan.. so who benefited the most from tax holiday? I leave it for you to think about it.

Ok back to Mr Finance Minister, aku xmau la komen yg tidur di parlimen, salah titik perpuluhan la apa la.. CMON LA DIA ADA ACCA KOT XKAN LA BOLEH SALAH TITIK PERPULUHAN ARGH BENGONG. naa kan geram haihh.. but lantak la dia sana.. ok i understand la him, as a chartered accountant, mmg bab2 audit ni the best la.. or shud i say, bab2 kasi keluar duit ni mmg particular.. which okay la bagus jugak la at least teda la rasuah ka apa..

eh xda rasuah ka?

https://www.bharian.com.my/berita/kes/2018/09/469202/mahkamah-bebaskan-guan-eng-li-koon

kes pembelian banglo di bawah harga pasaran, mahkamah gugurkan tuduhan sbb katanya x bole gantung halfway... pastu Tun M pun terkejut..eh?

http://www.astroawani.com/berita-malaysia/guan-eng-li-koon-bebas-saya-pun-terkejut-juga-tun-m-184634

HAHAHAHA kalau PM pun terkejut, apatah lagi kami bossku 

makin merepek suda aku ni lulz. okay sebenarnya kan, i don't like how LGE manage our MOF.. mcm terlalu byk benda2 yg unnecessary, like peruntukan RM12 juta for sekolah persendirian cina.. i mean, what for?? dorang from the first place suda x ikut sistem pendidikan negara kita, so di mana hak dorg sebenarnya utk dapatkan peruntukan daripada Bajet 2019? U know apa dia counter attack? Bagi sekolah tahfiz the same peruntukan. oi nda sama ba tu.. sekolah tahfiz tu yalah layak sbb dalam Perlembagaan Negara , Perkara 3 (1), meletakkan agama Islam sebagai agama persekutuan tapi agama lain bebas untuk diamalkan. and dorg bukan belajar tahfiz semata2 seja, ada jak sekolah tahfiz berdaftar yg memperuntukkan pelajar dia utk ambil aliran akademik formal (SPM, PT3).. jadi atas dasar apa sekolah persendirian cina ni layak? kalau mau cakap sekolah swasta, knp x bagi peruntukan utk sekolah swasta yg menggunakan sistem pendidikan kebangsaan? so biased ! duit yg dia bagi utk SPC tu, adalah duit cukai semua lapisan masyarakat x kisah pendapatan dia brp sekalipun. so atas dasar apa dorg ni layar di bagi peruntukan up to RM100++ seorang pelajar ?

stupid !

Menteri Pelajaran buat apa?

sibuk mau jadikan sekolah ni happy place.

dont even make me laugh la.. school was always a happy place sampailah the current policies menjadikan guru2 kita ni mcm kerani. My mom sampai miscarriage kot for working too hard.. isi ini itu la, setiausaha apa la.. jadi kerani suda oh guru nowadays. School had always been my happy place, kecuali asrama la duhh..and aku tgok dia ni, bercita-cita tinggi, tpi doesn't solve the core problem.. lambakan kerja office guru2 sampai menganggu P&P dgn deadline sana sini. can we just stop all these systems and just letak semuanya dlm 1 sistem under KPM? skrg ni like, KPM, JPN and PPD are 3 different entities tau.. masing2 ada kepala masing2.. pastu yg jadi mangsa cikgu2, sbg kumpulan pelaksana. pastu bising knp student x perform.. stupid~

oh then kes2 guru duka lara, x cukup sekolah, bangunan usang, etc.. yet our minister mau buat apa?

https://www.bharian.com.my/berita/nasional/2019/01/518303/maszlee-tinjau-peluang-buka-cawangan-universiti-di-indonesia

haaaaa tepok gais !

ey before buat benda2 begitu, mmg la universiti di Malaysia ni taraf dunia, no doubt..tpi kan, can u just leave benda2 merepek begini alone? pegi tinjau peluang bukak IPT dkt negeri seberang dulu weh.. IPG Kampus Tawau dkt Sabah pun mau tutup sbb x cukup tenaga pengajar la apa la. can u focus on improving our system first? aku xmau la ckp psal kasut hitam, stoking hitam etc tu.. eh malas la..mau ckp jgak..

ok my sisters are of coz la excited mau guna kasut hitam pegi sekolah.. which i dont mind sbb yalah i know my parents still mampu mau belikan..tpi my shoes pun harga RM20 jak kot even PVC, tu pun kena tukar every 2-3 months sbb rosak.. so on average, dlm RM100 jugak la spent on shoes ALONE.. belum keperluan sekolah lain lagi like baju, buku2, barang2 asrama.. skrg pun i'm using a shoe that cost me only RM10 hahaha kasut jak punn cmon la. then i said la to my mon, what about murid2 dari family susah ? Do u know harga kasut hitam sebenarnya lagi mahal dari kasut putih? *Shocking ~ bab2 tukar seragam sekolah ni, bukan melibatkan few specific schools jak, tpi 1 Malaysia ba.. Pastu, this keputusan was made masa 2nd quarter of 2018..which parents selalunya akan beli keperluan sekolah by 3rd quarter.. 

the issue here is, the pembekal.. ok lets say la, every year, demand for kasut putih is about 1000 pairs.. so to meet the demand for next year, the peruncit ordered 1000 pairs of kasut putih earlier that year (cthnya in January/February) so that those orders can be made on time by the supplier.. so by 2nd quarter, around june/july, of course la those 1000 pairs of shoes are somehow 95%  done, to meet the demand for next year..sbb these shoes need to sampai to the peruncit by October/November. Simple calculation kan ? So, tiba2 around that 2nd quarter, the policies was changed and semua pelajar kena pakai kasut hitam !!

Student? of coz la happy sbb x payah cuci kasut..

Parents? Pening sikit la sbb kasut hitam mahal..tpi boleh la OT to make xtra money..

Peruncit? Hah..sudah..mana aku mau letak 1000 pcs of shoes tu ? 

Pembekal? ey u ordered 1000 pcs kan, dah 95% siap, mana  bole back out.. we have deals weh

Ok sampai sini seja mau rant.. toodles

Towards better politicians in Malaysia.

But dumb ones.

Aidilfitri and forgiveness

It's been a while since i last updated my blog kan ? It's not like i'm busy or something..just malas hahaha.. i did wrote sth about my opinion towards Malaysia's politics nowadays, but i don't think this a suitable time for me to upload. I hope they do sth about our economy that is succumbing.. Lame urgh.

2 days ago, Ling's grandmother passed away around Asr. It was such a loss for him as he was quite close to her. May Allah forgive her sins and place her among the solehahs. Ling is having some hard time, and i can feel that. I've been checking on him every night and he can't sleep properly. Ling, i know you are strong yaa..and please know that i'm always here..just like you were always there when i i need someone.

Okay back to the topic..

This year's Ramadhan and Aidilfitri is fairly moderate. But, our family are complete. Everyone came back for raya and we had our photoshoot. Tau ka betapa susahnya cari baju colour mustard.. online kaa, jalan TAR ka, Mood Republic kaa, last2 dekat Danau jugak kena jumpa haihh.. penat gila mencari hermm.. ni pun mau selit jugak psal ekonomi, but let's just stick to the topic hahaha

Ramadhan, i think i rugi the most this Ramadhan. I didn't completed my tarawih, i didn't attend tadarus, i didn't do tahajud, solat pun lalai mcm lalat..haihh no wonder la Allah bagi nikmat Aidilfitri tu asal ada seja.. compared to last year..bukannya all out pun last yr, but at least i never missed terawih..but Aidilfitri was super duper meaningful to me.. everyone was like excited to see me, but not this year.

Talking about meeting friends kan.. i'll tell you what happened during 1 syawal. On the first day pun suda disaster sbb burasak nenek basi..lupa letak dlm esbok hermm so we had to makan nasi impit yg luckily, was available dlm fridge..and mumy suda masak daging kerutuk on the night before. So, they had sth to eat before going for raya prayer. Then, i think mumy said they had some kind of cabutan bertuah dekat masjid that they only started to solat raya at 8+++.. which is quite late. They should have done the cabutan bertuah afterwards urgh. Then our timing fot that day mmg lari berabis la.. just express salam2 because you know, my mom bersiap mcm pengantin uols. Hahaha.. my sisters and i suda siap and i help my brother to prepare as well. By the time we reached rumah nenek, they were all preparing mau convoi pegi ruma macik aji.. we didn't even sempat mau salam nenek pun hermphhhh.. semua sebab that stupid cabutan bertuah urgh. Dear jawatankuasa masjid, don't do it again. Please. You're messing people's time. Then dekat rumah macik aji, that me and ika berabis makan kari dgn burasak ulala so sedapp nasib baik i ate quite banyak sbb after that, abah bawa naik kebun bt 30. Spoil jugak la mood masa tu sbb suda la x dapat start the day dkt rumah nenek..haihh.. but it wasn't that bad pun.. naik kebun, dorg kenduri.. biasalah.. bugis kan..semua benda mau ada baca doa 😂

Okay, then after all that dekat kebun, we headed home..tp tiba2 abah bawa beraya dekat ruma his friend somewhere dekat that area jugak. That's when Ling invited me to go to Chiang's house for BBQ. Sempat lagi mengasi kena org ckp dlm grup wasep tu ada my ex 😒🙄.. iols on la mcm biasa kan..

So later that day, after reaching home, do the dishes, laundries, tidur sekejap, somewhere after maghrib, i dropped fuad & lela dekat ruma macik ocang, and i headed to Chiang's house sbb dia menanya suda d mana kami hahahahah

Here's where things get super duper interesting.

I met my ex.

Yes, musbi was there.


He was freakin there ! Padahal kan, i asked those guys and Ling if they invited him along, and they said it was only us (me, Ling, Daus, Zazmil, nasri, hafizz) and that's why i agreed to come. And i asked them quite a few times if Musbi would be there, and they didn't respond. So i trust them, believing that he won't be there ! Little did i know urghh ! When i reached Chiang's place, i thought my eyes caught sth really familiar.. a familiar figure but i was like "eh bukan dia tu, kawan c chiang kali tu.. it can't be him.. impossible".. then i park my car dekat tepi jalan.. and i took a quick glimpse again. Confirmed. It was him. 6 years of being a belangkas with him, xkan I don't recognize his figure kan ? Tinggal akad jak kami ni, then u can call us a married couple. Sumpah rasa mcm baru bercerai dgn dia.. it's like meeting you ex husband after a long time. I looked around and Ling and his gang pun belum sampai..rasa mau nangis ndatau mau turun or not 😭

Then i decided to turun seja la bcz I don't want to kecilkan hati c Chiang kan..sda la kena jemput, buat dunno lagi just bcz ur stupid ex was there! So kentalkan jiwa and just enter.. so i sat down la dekat meja tu sementara c chiang pegi bakar2 tu kambing..

Okay, the thing here kan.. i realized sth.. things mmg awkward..tp xda la awkward mana pun.. awkward lagi bila aku duduk sblh c fendy dat my heart bole racing ohh.. that feeling masa aku jump c mus dulu and masa aku jumpa dia raya tu, was different. At that point i think i knew, that my heart doesn't beat for him again..and that i had enough of echoing myself in a cave, believing that he would still hear me suffocating and hampir mati because i was longing for him. I did tegur him, but only sipi2 jak..most of the time, was his friends kasi kena2 kami like dulu2 hermm biasalah tu.

So, the forgiveness that i mentioned before. Does that mean that i really forgive him ? Urm..idk. but now rasa mcm kalau skrg tiba2 dia kena langgar kereta and ended up bedridden pun, i still can lawat and take care of him like how i would do masa dia accident dulu. Tp kita xmau doa yg bukan2 kan ? Cingg 😊


Sokay.. i'm living on a prayer now hehehe..

We gotta hold on, to what we got. It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not. 

Then lepas balik rumah tu, i asked la Ling did he purposely invited me ? And he said yes..telling me that it was all their plans to let Mus and I meet again.. tahniah anda berjaya. Sbb chiang ckp pun initially he invited us, but then he invited musbi along.. so, i basically fell into the trap zzz.. teda gambar sana sbb my mood rasa mau makan kambing seja..haha embekm

 Oh and here's our raya photoshoot photos hehehe..taken on 2 Syawal 💓

On 3rd syawal pulak, mcm biasa la, beraya rumah member. Cuma this yr, x banyak boleh pergi sbb ramai start kerja suda 😢 pastu x balik Raya sbb exam..but well, things kena go on jugak kan. So me, darwis, arapat and eva la yg pegi beraya..

Then the interesting part 😂

Hahahhaha ni la bila org sawit jumpa org sawit 😂 pass suda ni klu mau jadi menantu bapa ku.. 😂 photo candid by Eva

Oh and thank you Iqram, Kenneth & Dexter sbb dtg rumah beraya 😂 terkejut jugak ni sampai2 rumah jak tiba2 these familiar faces nampak ni haha.. cuma  x sempat mau ambil gambar.. 

Raya keempat, not much pun..sbb panaatt ya rabbi 😂 so standby d rumah seja manatau ada tamu ka apa..

And raya kelima..back to KL 😭

But mumy, abah & akmal are heading to Tawau..mau balik kampung dkt Makassar..and they reached makassar on 11 Jun via ferry & flight. Pastu siram kubur arwah tatok.. probably Sabtu balik Malaysia kot..beraya lama sikit sana sbb mau d lawat family2 sana.. ni pun ada sda yg x dikenal hahaha..jgnkan yg d Makassar, yg beampai d Sandakan pun x kenal ouh hahaha

Okayy thats all for raya 😘

Semoga raya raya next year, pijanah tidak beraya single lagi hahahahah kbaii 😂