2 days ago, Ling's grandmother passed away around Asr. It was such a loss for him as he was quite close to her. May Allah forgive her sins and place her among the solehahs. Ling is having some hard time, and i can feel that. I've been checking on him every night and he can't sleep properly. Ling, i know you are strong yaa..and please know that i'm always here..just like you were always there when i i need someone.
Okay back to the topic..
This year's Ramadhan and Aidilfitri is fairly moderate. But, our family are complete. Everyone came back for raya and we had our photoshoot. Tau ka betapa susahnya cari baju colour mustard.. online kaa, jalan TAR ka, Mood Republic kaa, last2 dekat Danau jugak kena jumpa haihh.. penat gila mencari hermm.. ni pun mau selit jugak psal ekonomi, but let's just stick to the topic hahaha
Ramadhan, i think i rugi the most this Ramadhan. I didn't completed my tarawih, i didn't attend tadarus, i didn't do tahajud, solat pun lalai mcm lalat..haihh no wonder la Allah bagi nikmat Aidilfitri tu asal ada seja.. compared to last year..bukannya all out pun last yr, but at least i never missed terawih..but Aidilfitri was super duper meaningful to me.. everyone was like excited to see me, but not this year.
Talking about meeting friends kan.. i'll tell you what happened during 1 syawal. On the first day pun suda disaster sbb burasak nenek basi..lupa letak dlm esbok hermm so we had to makan nasi impit yg luckily, was available dlm fridge..and mumy suda masak daging kerutuk on the night before. So, they had sth to eat before going for raya prayer. Then, i think mumy said they had some kind of cabutan bertuah dekat masjid that they only started to solat raya at 8+++.. which is quite late. They should have done the cabutan bertuah afterwards urgh. Then our timing fot that day mmg lari berabis la.. just express salam2 because you know, my mom bersiap mcm pengantin uols. Hahaha.. my sisters and i suda siap and i help my brother to prepare as well. By the time we reached rumah nenek, they were all preparing mau convoi pegi ruma macik aji.. we didn't even sempat mau salam nenek pun hermphhhh.. semua sebab that stupid cabutan bertuah urgh. Dear jawatankuasa masjid, don't do it again. Please. You're messing people's time. Then dekat rumah macik aji, that me and ika berabis makan kari dgn burasak ulala so sedapp nasib baik i ate quite banyak sbb after that, abah bawa naik kebun bt 30. Spoil jugak la mood masa tu sbb suda la x dapat start the day dkt rumah nenek..haihh.. but it wasn't that bad pun.. naik kebun, dorg kenduri.. biasalah.. bugis kan..semua benda mau ada baca doa 😂
Okay, then after all that dekat kebun, we headed home..tp tiba2 abah bawa beraya dekat ruma his friend somewhere dekat that area jugak. That's when Ling invited me to go to Chiang's house for BBQ. Sempat lagi mengasi kena org ckp dlm grup wasep tu ada my ex 😒🙄.. iols on la mcm biasa kan..
So later that day, after reaching home, do the dishes, laundries, tidur sekejap, somewhere after maghrib, i dropped fuad & lela dekat ruma macik ocang, and i headed to Chiang's house sbb dia menanya suda d mana kami hahahahah
Here's where things get super duper interesting.
I met my ex.
Yes, musbi was there.
He was freakin there ! Padahal kan, i asked those guys and Ling if they invited him along, and they said it was only us (me, Ling, Daus, Zazmil, nasri, hafizz) and that's why i agreed to come. And i asked them quite a few times if Musbi would be there, and they didn't respond. So i trust them, believing that he won't be there ! Little did i know urghh ! When i reached Chiang's place, i thought my eyes caught sth really familiar.. a familiar figure but i was like "eh bukan dia tu, kawan c chiang kali tu.. it can't be him.. impossible".. then i park my car dekat tepi jalan.. and i took a quick glimpse again. Confirmed. It was him. 6 years of being a belangkas with him, xkan I don't recognize his figure kan ? Tinggal akad jak kami ni, then u can call us a married couple. Sumpah rasa mcm baru bercerai dgn dia.. it's like meeting you ex husband after a long time. I looked around and Ling and his gang pun belum sampai..rasa mau nangis ndatau mau turun or not ðŸ˜
Then i decided to turun seja la bcz I don't want to kecilkan hati c Chiang kan..sda la kena jemput, buat dunno lagi just bcz ur stupid ex was there! So kentalkan jiwa and just enter.. so i sat down la dekat meja tu sementara c chiang pegi bakar2 tu kambing..
Okay, the thing here kan.. i realized sth.. things mmg awkward..tp xda la awkward mana pun.. awkward lagi bila aku duduk sblh c fendy dat my heart bole racing ohh.. that feeling masa aku jump c mus dulu and masa aku jumpa dia raya tu, was different. At that point i think i knew, that my heart doesn't beat for him again..and that i had enough of echoing myself in a cave, believing that he would still hear me suffocating and hampir mati because i was longing for him. I did tegur him, but only sipi2 jak..most of the time, was his friends kasi kena2 kami like dulu2 hermm biasalah tu.
So, the forgiveness that i mentioned before. Does that mean that i really forgive him ? Urm..idk. but now rasa mcm kalau skrg tiba2 dia kena langgar kereta and ended up bedridden pun, i still can lawat and take care of him like how i would do masa dia accident dulu. Tp kita xmau doa yg bukan2 kan ? Cingg 😊
Sokay.. i'm living on a prayer now hehehe..
We gotta hold on, to what we got. It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not.
Then lepas balik rumah tu, i asked la Ling did he purposely invited me ? And he said yes..telling me that it was all their plans to let Mus and I meet again.. tahniah anda berjaya. Sbb chiang ckp pun initially he invited us, but then he invited musbi along.. so, i basically fell into the trap zzz.. teda gambar sana sbb my mood rasa mau makan kambing seja..haha embekm
Oh and here's our raya photoshoot photos hehehe..taken on 2 Syawal 💓
On 3rd syawal pulak, mcm biasa la, beraya rumah member. Cuma this yr, x banyak boleh pergi sbb ramai start kerja suda 😢 pastu x balik Raya sbb exam..but well, things kena go on jugak kan. So me, darwis, arapat and eva la yg pegi beraya..
Then the interesting part 😂
Hahahhaha ni la bila org sawit jumpa org sawit 😂 pass suda ni klu mau jadi menantu bapa ku.. 😂 photo candid by Eva
Oh and thank you Iqram, Kenneth & Dexter sbb dtg rumah beraya 😂 terkejut jugak ni sampai2 rumah jak tiba2 these familiar faces nampak ni haha.. cuma x sempat mau ambil gambar..
Raya keempat, not much pun..sbb panaatt ya rabbi 😂 so standby d rumah seja manatau ada tamu ka apa..
And raya kelima..back to KL ðŸ˜
But mumy, abah & akmal are heading to Tawau..mau balik kampung dkt Makassar..and they reached makassar on 11 Jun via ferry & flight. Pastu siram kubur arwah tatok.. probably Sabtu balik Malaysia kot..beraya lama sikit sana sbb mau d lawat family2 sana.. ni pun ada sda yg x dikenal hahaha..jgnkan yg d Makassar, yg beampai d Sandakan pun x kenal ouh hahaha
Okayy thats all for raya 😘
Semoga raya raya next year, pijanah tidak beraya single lagi hahahahah kbaii 😂
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