Of Paperplanes and Tooth

it has been a while since i last updated this blog. been busy with clinics, working life, and so on..

how am i doing in life?

i feel quite okay.. it feels nice. 

the most important part right now, is having someone to love and to be loved by someone. never in my life I have someone, other than my family, that i can rely on.  he has his flaws, obviously, but so do I.

it's been hard for us these past few weeks. but i believe that our time will come. i'm happy now, and I hope he's happy too.. at least, this will deviate him from thinking too much about his economic stability..but hey.. life is like a wheel. i'm not repeating my last mistake in this chance. i'm going to give all i can, but in return, i wish for eternal happiness.

but sometimes, i'm thinking..
am i being fair to myself?
i don't know if i should say that i deserve someone better. for me, this is enough. I don't want a guy with fancy cars, just someone who knows how to be responsible, especially towards his family. ..

he has flaws, well so do i... a lot.

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and then, there is this other guy, that came into my life after he left me. it was abrupt, and i never notice his existence, until months later.. although, he's been there all the time !  on his birthday,  i  confessed my feelings.. i was neither accepted nor rejected, but it made me feel so relieved.

then on the same day, later that evening..he came back into my life..begging to be accepted back..

i gave him the chance, but if he screw this, that's it.

but i was wrong.. he changed.
he has become more lovable, attentive and cares more that he was before.

and with that.. i'm going to give all i can for us, for  our family and for our future family 💕