Minggu IO baru start utk budak2 junior 1st yr FGG ni hahah..and aku tgh baca newspaper ni..tpi news from 18 Sept. 18. Hahahahhahahah yes mmg outdated sikit..tpi itu seja yg ada..cuma yg belak ni, the first 10 pages semua pasal politik, Langkah PD blablabla.. haihh aku sbnarnya sgat la x faham apa yg penyokong PKR ni tgok..aku nampak yg dorg perjuangkan tu mmg utk DSAI seja.. bapak aa.. aku harap la PAS menang dkt PD nanti lewlz tolong la jgn bagi DSAI mng hahahah.. idk la..aku mmg x suka dia dari zaman tun M lagi.. haha
K enuf rant abt that 😂
Haritu kan, skipped my medicine for 3 nights..omg aku ingat mcm ok la apa la sgt withdrawal symptoms tu paling2 pun selesma jak.. HAHAHA I WAS SO WRONGGGGG ! I wasn't only common cold ya ladies and gentlemen.. masa tu rasa pening gila tpi mkn pcm pun x jalan.. recurrent nightmares yg sampai aku rasa mcm tgh hidup dlm thriller movie.. aku x dapat bezakan realiti dgn mimpi.. ee seram la.. i i dont like it.. k menyesal suda..pasni aku makan ubat hahaha.. cuma nasib baik dia x kacau sleep cycle ku..
But idk sampai bila i'll be depending on this drug.. biarlah.. as long as i could feel what others can feel hahaah 💕
Last few days, x ingat la bila, i talked to eva abt sth.. abt my feelings.. siapa ling2 d mata ku? Siapa c darwis ? Ok now that i made it clear dgn feeling ku, aku rasa lebih safe..
Ling2, mmg la my actions shows that i like him..true..aku mmg suka dia..tpi more to as a friend..a good friend.. somehow aku x bole tengok dia beyond that although kdg dtg jugak kilik2 ku..but i don't really mean that.. aku rasa mcm budak2 pulak bila dgn dia ni haha 😂 i wish to stay like that long2 one ouu..
Darwis. HIS VOICE IS LIKE OMG..other than kurt hugo Schneider, aku mmg x layan cover lagu2 lain.. his voice mmg dreamy ou ou sam aku bole tidur just by listening them. Hmm idk la feeling aku sma c dar tu, suka tu suka jugak..tpi mainly sbb dia pandai nyanyi (omg shud i post another post just to puji your singing) haiya.. otherwise hmmm.. logicly, he is the only lelaki in my life yg aku rasa possible utk pass ujian abah utk jdi menantu cehh. Hahahahaha.. dia cukup pakej ou and i like the fact that dia pun suka kucing hehehehehe.. setakat gigi dia tu, pemanis ba tu 🙈 aku start terharu dgn dia tu yg masa dia sanggup turun p bawah kolong masa d ruma c suri just to take my sijil yg terjatuh di bawa angin.. k tu jak mau ckp psal dia..nda mau lebih2 sbb dia pun ada someone suda..so yeah 🤖
As for me, aku sbnarnya takut n trauma to like someone lagi.. so skrg aku enjoy jak..siapa d depan mata ku, aku akan hargai..klu satu hati Allah akan tarik dia balik, then i should prepare myself for that la..aku tau one day Allah akan tarik ling2 from me , tpi sbenarnya kan..aku sgt berharap aku dapat bantu ling2.. as many way as possible..tpi aku x kenal sgat ling2, tapi aku x jugak mau tanya dia so many things..just biar la klu dia sendiri mau cerita, then go ahead.. aku harap ada la sth dlm hidup ling2 yg aku bole bring good.. anything.. sbb dia suda jdi asbab utk aku rasa tersangat la happy skrg sampai org ckp aku tgh bercinta haha.. well surprise everyone ! 😂 I'm not and not even close pun to bercinta (well ada juga la some pple tnya whether ling2 and i are having sth, but the fact is we r not ok)
Ok toodles !
"Disetiap kesulitan pasti ada kemudahan" (94 : 5 & 6)
Hai ling ❤
Ling..cakap la apa kau cakap..obses ka apa watever la.. tapi aku warn awal2 kau mmg akan geli bila baca ni.
Tpi urghh watever annoying cemana pun sekali kau, i want to thank you for being the annoying dude in my life. Ok aku mau terus terang la ling..
Yeah aku tau probably kau pun annoyed dgn aku, well hahaha kau pikir aku kesah ka 🙄 selagi kau hidup, selagi tu la aku hantui kau hahaha..
Malas la mau bsweet2 ni..tpi aku mau jugak buat biarpun aku type ni sambil bulu2 roma ku meremang sbb geli hahaha puii
Napi..thank your for these past few weeks. Thank you sbb selalu ada di hujung wasep. Tapi paling penting..thank you for making me believe that i could smile and be happy again. Yes, after those traumatic painful events (oh bukan sbb ex ku jak ya..byk lagi happened but i won't share with you lagi..ckup psal dia jak kau tau). Aku selalu try cari that person yg bole wake me up from this nightmare..and aku x sangka org tu kau hahahaha..tpi probably, kau ni pun another nightmare jugak. Masalahnya kan, aku pun xtau dari ceruk mana tiba2 kau bole muncul balik dalam hidup ku.. aku ingat lepas SPM tu, tu jak la.. that's it. Then all of a sudden, uina, stiap malam ba ni aku wish gudnite sma kau hahahaha. Oh oyasumi tu maksud dia goodnight ya ling..
Aku sebenarnya xtau brp lama Allah akan pinjamkan kau dalam hidup ku ni..probably sampai hujung bulan or bila2 la haha.. Selagi mana Allah masih pinjam kan kau dalam hidupku, aku akan cherish kau sehabis n seboleh yg aku possibly can..ada banyak benda yg aku mau share dgn kau..tpi aku faham dgn rutin mu..aku xmau kacau..especially bila kau tgh main game hahahaha..yer aku faham tu bila kau tgh war tiba2 kena call..bole bikin begaduh tu 😂
Oh ada tu satu kali masa aku jealous kau ada someone tu, and kau tanya aku "Mksd mu pisang brbuah dua kli, apa kao mau jtuh hti lg?" Yes ling..aku takut. Aku takut sangat kalau aku jatuh hati dgn kau..aku takut sangat.. sumpah. Tpi at some point, aku rasa selamat.. aku takut bukan sbb our background, tpi sbb aku suda pernah syg org sehabis sayang suda..tpi at the end..wasted. Buang laut ba bilang.
Aku sejujurnya, sgat la mau avoid ckp psal our past. Aku xmau tau psal hidup mu yg dulu, and aku xmau cerita psal past ku. What's done is done, and that's it. Mcm kau cakap la..bila jatuh, buka chapter baru.. baru skrg ni aku rasa betul2 bole move on.
Aku pun bingung aku ni sbenarnya suka kau ka or aku just suka kau being around sbb kau melayan kilik ku..haha idk..whatever
Ok last but not least. Thank you ling2 sbb bagi aku panggil ling2 hahahah..and selalu layan kilik ku ;) thank you ling ❤ kbaii
Aku teda crush or someone or whatever you called it lol k. Harap maklum. Haha motiff sgat aku ksitau benda ni sama kau haha..
Tpi urghh watever annoying cemana pun sekali kau, i want to thank you for being the annoying dude in my life. Ok aku mau terus terang la ling..
Yeah aku tau probably kau pun annoyed dgn aku, well hahaha kau pikir aku kesah ka 🙄 selagi kau hidup, selagi tu la aku hantui kau hahaha..
Malas la mau bsweet2 ni..tpi aku mau jugak buat biarpun aku type ni sambil bulu2 roma ku meremang sbb geli hahaha puii
Napi..thank your for these past few weeks. Thank you sbb selalu ada di hujung wasep. Tapi paling penting..thank you for making me believe that i could smile and be happy again. Yes, after those traumatic painful events (oh bukan sbb ex ku jak ya..byk lagi happened but i won't share with you lagi..ckup psal dia jak kau tau). Aku selalu try cari that person yg bole wake me up from this nightmare..and aku x sangka org tu kau hahahaha..tpi probably, kau ni pun another nightmare jugak. Masalahnya kan, aku pun xtau dari ceruk mana tiba2 kau bole muncul balik dalam hidup ku.. aku ingat lepas SPM tu, tu jak la.. that's it. Then all of a sudden, uina, stiap malam ba ni aku wish gudnite sma kau hahahaha. Oh oyasumi tu maksud dia goodnight ya ling..
Aku sebenarnya xtau brp lama Allah akan pinjamkan kau dalam hidup ku ni..probably sampai hujung bulan or bila2 la haha.. Selagi mana Allah masih pinjam kan kau dalam hidupku, aku akan cherish kau sehabis n seboleh yg aku possibly can..ada banyak benda yg aku mau share dgn kau..tpi aku faham dgn rutin mu..aku xmau kacau..especially bila kau tgh main game hahahaha..yer aku faham tu bila kau tgh war tiba2 kena call..bole bikin begaduh tu 😂
Oh ada tu satu kali masa aku jealous kau ada someone tu, and kau tanya aku "Mksd mu pisang brbuah dua kli, apa kao mau jtuh hti lg?" Yes ling..aku takut. Aku takut sangat kalau aku jatuh hati dgn kau..aku takut sangat.. sumpah. Tpi at some point, aku rasa selamat.. aku takut bukan sbb our background, tpi sbb aku suda pernah syg org sehabis sayang suda..tpi at the end..wasted. Buang laut ba bilang.
Aku sejujurnya, sgat la mau avoid ckp psal our past. Aku xmau tau psal hidup mu yg dulu, and aku xmau cerita psal past ku. What's done is done, and that's it. Mcm kau cakap la..bila jatuh, buka chapter baru.. baru skrg ni aku rasa betul2 bole move on.
Aku pun bingung aku ni sbenarnya suka kau ka or aku just suka kau being around sbb kau melayan kilik ku..haha idk..whatever
Ok last but not least. Thank you ling2 sbb bagi aku panggil ling2 hahahah..and selalu layan kilik ku ;) thank you ling ❤ kbaii
Aku teda crush or someone or whatever you called it lol k. Harap maklum. Haha motiff sgat aku ksitau benda ni sama kau haha..
"Dan nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah kau hendak dustakan?"
Last weekend was a very long weekend.. and Hari Malaysia too.. idk la..tahun ni i felt a little bit different abt Hari Malaysia. As if like, finally everyone knows the importance of Hari Malaysia to us Malaysians (especially Sabah & Sarawak people). What happened to Malaysia Agreements 1963 that was signed between Sabah, Sarawak and Singapore that time.. cuma 2 yrs later, Singapore decided to be a free country of their own, and i think it was their best decision ever..
Kadang, i'm battling with myself. Part of me still wanted Sabah to be part ot Malaysia, but seeing the injustice that we have been facing for 55 yrs, dgn the outmost difference in modernization..i feel like, rugi. Sabah has too much to offer tapi all that went to a single place that hmm tiba2 with no natural sources, tiba2 jadi kaya. As if like, kami ni kena jajah. Yeah. That's what we are experiencing.
The freedom in thinking, the socioeconomy, the opportunities..semua mcm lebih kpd org dkt semenanjung compared to Sabah and Sarawak. And i'm so jealous dgn Sarawakians sbb dorg ada ex-ketua menteri yg can say macam harimau. He was so fierce and tegas, at the end of the day, sarawak got what they deserve especially on oil.
Sabah? Hmm.. having to write this pun, is devastating. Ok i'm not going to cakap psal education, let's go to the most basic necessities you need to have to actually exist; identity card.
You might have shelter, you might have all the necessity to live, but the that little rectangular card is going to decide how you live. What right you have as and individual..or else, you will be denied for everything ! One day, to even live pun, you need that. You have no idea how Sabahans is really struggling with this. Bukannya dorg pendatang asing pun.. they are actually locals, cuma tau la org dulu2 ni mana tau psal benda begini.. org dulu tinggal dkt estet, pedalaman, yg susah mau di reach ba..and they don't know what to do..
Tapi yang paaaling aku sedih is abt infrastructure. X payah tgok jauh2 la..just go to Sandakan Airport. Sumpah, kalau flight pagi2 yg pukul 9 sampai Sdk kan, especially MAS la..susah mau cari local ppl.. mostly foreigners sampai to the point masa i arrived, ingatkan ada dkt foreign land sbb ramai gilaa blondies hahahaha.. masa tgh tggu flight pun kena tgok skrin byk kali takut tersalah flight. Semua blondies pulak tu of coz la haha. Haha banyak pulak termembebel psl ni lol. K fine..my point is, Sandakan Airport should be upgrad to Sandakan International Airport.. flight dari Taiwan should land here..sbb ramai gilaa org dari sana datang sini..huarghh..
Pastu few days ago mcm update la dgn mumblers psal isu borneo comrad tu (fineee asrin kawan c pendy tu was one of them wth).. betul suda tu apa dorg perjuangkan, tpi cara dorg salah.. tpi hopefully benda ni akan buka mata org keliling la especially org mcm aku ni yg jadi student di semenanjung.. klu bukan kita sepa lagi ou..
Hmm tu jak la mau bebel..actually mau bebel psal class today, but banyak isu pulak sekali up psal hari malaysia ni hm
Ok doakan urusan ling2 and semua org yg tgh dlm desperation dipermudahkan yaa.. 💕
Toodles, and happy early birthday to me ;3
Kadang, i'm battling with myself. Part of me still wanted Sabah to be part ot Malaysia, but seeing the injustice that we have been facing for 55 yrs, dgn the outmost difference in modernization..i feel like, rugi. Sabah has too much to offer tapi all that went to a single place that hmm tiba2 with no natural sources, tiba2 jadi kaya. As if like, kami ni kena jajah. Yeah. That's what we are experiencing.
The freedom in thinking, the socioeconomy, the opportunities..semua mcm lebih kpd org dkt semenanjung compared to Sabah and Sarawak. And i'm so jealous dgn Sarawakians sbb dorg ada ex-ketua menteri yg can say macam harimau. He was so fierce and tegas, at the end of the day, sarawak got what they deserve especially on oil.
Sabah? Hmm.. having to write this pun, is devastating. Ok i'm not going to cakap psal education, let's go to the most basic necessities you need to have to actually exist; identity card.
You might have shelter, you might have all the necessity to live, but the that little rectangular card is going to decide how you live. What right you have as and individual..or else, you will be denied for everything ! One day, to even live pun, you need that. You have no idea how Sabahans is really struggling with this. Bukannya dorg pendatang asing pun.. they are actually locals, cuma tau la org dulu2 ni mana tau psal benda begini.. org dulu tinggal dkt estet, pedalaman, yg susah mau di reach ba..and they don't know what to do..
Tapi yang paaaling aku sedih is abt infrastructure. X payah tgok jauh2 la..just go to Sandakan Airport. Sumpah, kalau flight pagi2 yg pukul 9 sampai Sdk kan, especially MAS la..susah mau cari local ppl.. mostly foreigners sampai to the point masa i arrived, ingatkan ada dkt foreign land sbb ramai gilaa blondies hahahaha.. masa tgh tggu flight pun kena tgok skrin byk kali takut tersalah flight. Semua blondies pulak tu of coz la haha. Haha banyak pulak termembebel psl ni lol. K fine..my point is, Sandakan Airport should be upgrad to Sandakan International Airport.. flight dari Taiwan should land here..sbb ramai gilaa org dari sana datang sini..huarghh..
Pastu few days ago mcm update la dgn mumblers psal isu borneo comrad tu (fineee asrin kawan c pendy tu was one of them wth).. betul suda tu apa dorg perjuangkan, tpi cara dorg salah.. tpi hopefully benda ni akan buka mata org keliling la especially org mcm aku ni yg jadi student di semenanjung.. klu bukan kita sepa lagi ou..
Hmm tu jak la mau bebel..actually mau bebel psal class today, but banyak isu pulak sekali up psal hari malaysia ni hm
Ok doakan urusan ling2 and semua org yg tgh dlm desperation dipermudahkan yaa.. 💕
Toodles, and happy early birthday to me ;3
The Only Exception
Okay today start suda new sem (or shud i say old sem for me).. back to year 3 balik..well not bad jugak la sbb hmm idk.. aku somehow boleh accept things for real suda.. mcm telampau redha and pasrah seja sama apa yang berlaku to me lately.. tu la org ckp jgn main dgn api nanti terbakar..haha lol teda kaitan k :3
it started out well..yalah even aku jak yg repeat tahun pun, but it wasn't that bad at all..still jumpa akk2 DSA yg byk tolong aku especially kak izan yg byk tolong bagi chair masa hari2 kritikal.. mau buat cemana, klu Allah mmg ckp bukan rezeki, bukan la tu rezeki ku. Usaha la cemana skli pun, if it's not meant to be, it will not be.
Aku belajar sesuatu dari semua ni.. Ling2 pernah cakap "Jangan pernah salahkan takdir.. n jgn kasi biar "kalau laa dulu, kalau laaa" ". Aku sentap kejap.. belum pernah lagi org ckp bgitu sama aku.. mmg la wina ada juga ckp benda yg sama..tpi aku rasa mcm x menyentap pulak.. skli ling2 yg ckp bgitu, baru aku tersedar sikit. yalah mmg la maksud dia tu psal c musbi..but somehow masa dia ckp tu kan, is exactly apa yg aku mau dgr.. org kata perfect timing la.. and then i get to know him more.. dia punya lifestyle, dugaan hidup dia.. aku rasa dugaan dia lagi besar dari apa yg aku hadap ni.. kecik seja ba ni masalah ku., yg penting buang seja org2 toksik dari hidup ku ni.. buang seja dorg for good insyaAllah settle my problem. as for him, it was bigger than that..even masa aku tulis ni pun, aku x habis fikir lagi..
aku impressed gila how dia handle masalah dia tu.. yalah maybe still jajal2 jugak la tapi dia buat mcm benda tu kecil seja..tpi bila kau fikir balik,, Allahu.. aku xtau cemana dia bole jadi sekuat tu.. dia sangat kuat la sumpah.. kalau aku jadi dia ni, mmg aku suru parents ku ksi kawin aku jak..nasib aku perempuan..klu dia? mana boleh.. arghh aku menaip sambil fikir ni pun stress aish !
And you dont meet people by accident. Aku percaya benda ni. Bila aku fikir balik kan, aku xtau how did me and ling2 end up rapat and how did i ended up panggil dia ling2 hahahaha (sorryy,,tapi comel sangat la ling2 tu..sis kenot) and aku jumpa dia dkt the very right moment.. well not exactly jumpa la..cmon la we've known each other since 2011 hahaha (7 years? 😁) arghh read abt him la dkt previous post,.and NO WE ARE NOT DATING. I don't have a crush on him and so does him. again.. WE ARE NOT IN LOVE, DATING OR BLABLABLA LOVEY DOVEY STUFFS tu noo we are not !
fine.. enuf laa abt ling2.. suda la panggil org ayam tadi.,. eee 😒😒😒
actually kan, aku malas mau post psal benda2 dental or study stuffs dlm sini.. expressing them buat aku tambah stress pulak.. hahaha.. but i would like to thank all those people yg bagi support dgn aku throughout this time..insyaAllah. i'll come back stronger..
X semua benda di dunia ni jadi atas kehendak kita. Jangan pernah salahkan takdir. Once you accept how things are meant to be, then that is when you'll be happy with what Allah has gave you. Take a deep breath and be happy ! 💗💗💗 insyaAllah things will work out well.. insyaAllah fir ! believe in yourself !
esok aku ada appointment dgn psy, so let's see la how it goes.. to be honest, aku sebenarnya takut bila aku stop makan pill tu, depression ku akan dtg balik.. skrg ni pun dia ok sbb meds tu and of coz sbb ling2 ada with me.. ling2 yg bagi motivation supaya x makan pill lagi. tapi what if one day ling2 left me again? than that'll be sangatlah ugly and hmm.. astaghfirullah firzanah !
ingat ! ingat ! ingat ! tangan yang berpaut pada hati manusia akan jatuh, tapi tangan yang berpaut pada Allah xkan pernah tersungkur ! ingat tu.. Allah akan hadirkan dia kejap jak tu fir..one day he'll leave like how things are leaving you behind.. Allah yang bagi semua ni fir..
insyaAllah..i can do this !👍👍👍✊✊✊
Cruella DeVille
I tell you what. Yes, you are cruel. You were cruel enough to lie to me and bagi aku harapan bila last2 kau sendiri yg buang aku dari hidupmu gara2 seorang perempuan.
Yes, mmg kawan2 ku sendiri ckp kau suda bahagia and berjaya skrg, padahal aku di sini kena makan antidepressants just to keep myself sane.. org sampai ingat aku xda effort mau happy balik..macam2 aku try ya.. last2 kesengsaraan ku tengok kau bahagia makan diriku sendiri. Aku kena repeat tahun lagi. even kawan aku sendiri ckp, kalau dorg jadi aku, dorg pun xtau cemana mau jadi kuat. Tpi itulah, setiap org ada ujian dan dugaan masing2 kan..
Kau mmg cruel. Buat apa juga kau still mau intip hidup ku lepas kau sendiri buang aku? Kau tau ka not even a single day in my life that i go on without remembering and missing you. Sebelum aku tidur, every night, aku akan ingat kau. Benda tu jdi lebih teruk sbb aku dapat tau kau stalk aku start dari bulan 5. Aku berusaha utk anggap kau suda mati, tiada di dunia ni..then kau tiba2 muncul..cemana ba aku mau move on ya? Kau mmg kejam !!
Skrg ni, yes aku admit aku happy. Tau ka di saat aku suda give up segalanya kan, Allah send someone for me to make me forget pasal semua ni.. aku tau one day Allah akan tarik dia balik dari hidup ku, and until that day come..aku akan cherish dia mcm mna aku cuba utk cherish kau masa aku merayu melutut dgn kau dulu.
Aku masih ingat lagi kek batik yg aku buat khas utk kau dulu tapi kau x pandang or cuba sikit pun.. alasan mu sbb kau x makan benda manis.. segar lagi benda tu di fikiran ku.. and alhamdulillah aku suda counterback memory pahit tu.. i made him some cheesetart and dia ckp cheesetart tu sedap.. aku sangat happy yaa dia ckp bgitu even cheesetart ku tym tu sgat jelek and aku sebenarnya malu mau kasi dia..tpi dia tetap makan and berabis ckp tq dgn aku.. that little thing seja dia buat tpi dia naikkan semangat ku utk rasa bahagia..
No, aku belum sampai ke tahap aku suka dia.. he's just the person yg Allah htr dlm hidupku utk aku percaya yg aku pun masih boleh bahagia.. dia bawa aku senyum balik bila mana aku ingat aku x bole senyum suda.. pernah kawan aku rakam aku tym tgh ckp dgn dia and i can feel muka ku sgat happy and glowing.. aku rasa lama gila aku x sehappy tu ya..
And aku mmg xkan ada rship dgn dia sbb aku takut pisang berbuah dua kali. Cukup dgn kau aku korbankan segalanya last2 kau buang aku sbb seorang perempuan.
Semoga kau pun bahagia dgn dia..birthday ku nanti anniversary kamu kan? Tahniah la.
Bye
To Ling2
Dearest ling2..
I know it's only been a while, but thank you for existing in my life ya..
Ling2.. i don't know how to put this, but i'm so glad to have you in my life. It's like you are bringing sunshine to my world when i thought it'll never appear again. You made me smile when i thought i couldn't smile again..
Kau tau ka ling2 ? Semenjak kau datang dlm hidup ku kan, i started to found myself again. Aku start bangun balik dari the jail that i've been trapped in. And aku pun xtau from where d hell you showed up.. mcm telampau random ba..padahal aku x cari kau pun..and now kau adalah org yg paling aku cari and look forward to everyday. As if like, esok aku akan jumpa kau lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi..
Aku pun xtau ling2 whether aku suka kau or x sebenarnya.. but aku happy sgt2 bila dgn kau.. yes ling2.. ini la yg aku cari..aku ingatkan bila aku dgn c mus getback dulu, i tot i will be happy tpi aku x pernah rasa sehappy ini..
And i realized aku jadi bahagia begini bila aku start suda baking balik.. sumpah aku lama gila x rasa kepuasan bila baking yaa.. dulu yes aku rasa puas gila tpi after some unfortunate events came, passion tu hilang sikit demi sikit.. then you showed up in my life, and brought light into me back..
Aku pernah try mau cari pengganti c mus dlm hati ku or just to find someone utk bawa aku bahagia balik.. aku start rapat dgn c hafiz amat, go to random blind date..but none of it works.. si hafiz aku mmg x boleh go.. mcm teda click aku rasa..cukup bila dia boleh jadi telinga ku seja..sbb aku rasa mau ada org dgr luahan ku.. and aku xmau sembarang org..tpi sampai situ jak la.. aku bukan mau guna2 kan c hafiz, but that's how i see him.. mmg itu la dia di mata ku..
Where as you ling2.. you are different.. aku x fikir pun psal c mus bila dgn kau.. aku boleh lupa utk makan ubat just bila kau wish goodnight to me.. and i feel so complete bila kau wish morning dgn aku.. mmg la aku sometimes ckp psal c mus dgn kau..tpi the truth is, i forced myself to talk abt him to you..sbb aku mau tau cemana perasaan ku bila aku ckp psal dia dgn kau.. it turned to be, aku x suka. I don't like ckp psal dia dgn kau sbb aku rasa buang masa. Bagus lagi aku merepek2 dgn kau pastu kau pun melayan jugak hahahah
Ling2, i'm not saying i like you.. aku pun xtau aku suka kau or not..serious aku xtau..tpi the crush yg aku keep mentioning to you is actually you. Cuma yalah..crush tu crush aja deh hahaha mcm kau crush dgn hayley william la kan hahah lol
But i'm so going to panggil kau ling2 sampai idk..sampai either one of us ada special someone hahaha
Oh anyway..aku sbenarnya takut mau suka kau ling2.. aku tau kau pun anggap aku kawan and so do i. Aku takut sgat bila aku suka dgn kau or vice versa sbb only akan ada 2 ending jak.. either we will end up happy together or kita akan bermusuh sampai bila2.. aku xmau ambil risiko for either one so thats y aku stick to kawan jak dgn kau even aku panggil kau ling2..
Oh..and ling2 tu sebenarnya maksud dia 'darling', bukan keling yaa.. x sampai hati aku panggil org begitu haha so racist.. but because you are so dear to me, hence, ling2.. hehehe
Ok ling2.. pls la..pls stay in my life sampai bila2 💕
I know it's only been a while, but thank you for existing in my life ya..
Ling2.. i don't know how to put this, but i'm so glad to have you in my life. It's like you are bringing sunshine to my world when i thought it'll never appear again. You made me smile when i thought i couldn't smile again..
Kau tau ka ling2 ? Semenjak kau datang dlm hidup ku kan, i started to found myself again. Aku start bangun balik dari the jail that i've been trapped in. And aku pun xtau from where d hell you showed up.. mcm telampau random ba..padahal aku x cari kau pun..and now kau adalah org yg paling aku cari and look forward to everyday. As if like, esok aku akan jumpa kau lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi..
Aku pun xtau ling2 whether aku suka kau or x sebenarnya.. but aku happy sgt2 bila dgn kau.. yes ling2.. ini la yg aku cari..aku ingatkan bila aku dgn c mus getback dulu, i tot i will be happy tpi aku x pernah rasa sehappy ini..
And i realized aku jadi bahagia begini bila aku start suda baking balik.. sumpah aku lama gila x rasa kepuasan bila baking yaa.. dulu yes aku rasa puas gila tpi after some unfortunate events came, passion tu hilang sikit demi sikit.. then you showed up in my life, and brought light into me back..
Aku pernah try mau cari pengganti c mus dlm hati ku or just to find someone utk bawa aku bahagia balik.. aku start rapat dgn c hafiz amat, go to random blind date..but none of it works.. si hafiz aku mmg x boleh go.. mcm teda click aku rasa..cukup bila dia boleh jadi telinga ku seja..sbb aku rasa mau ada org dgr luahan ku.. and aku xmau sembarang org..tpi sampai situ jak la.. aku bukan mau guna2 kan c hafiz, but that's how i see him.. mmg itu la dia di mata ku..
Where as you ling2.. you are different.. aku x fikir pun psal c mus bila dgn kau.. aku boleh lupa utk makan ubat just bila kau wish goodnight to me.. and i feel so complete bila kau wish morning dgn aku.. mmg la aku sometimes ckp psal c mus dgn kau..tpi the truth is, i forced myself to talk abt him to you..sbb aku mau tau cemana perasaan ku bila aku ckp psal dia dgn kau.. it turned to be, aku x suka. I don't like ckp psal dia dgn kau sbb aku rasa buang masa. Bagus lagi aku merepek2 dgn kau pastu kau pun melayan jugak hahahah
Ling2, i'm not saying i like you.. aku pun xtau aku suka kau or not..serious aku xtau..tpi the crush yg aku keep mentioning to you is actually you. Cuma yalah..crush tu crush aja deh hahaha mcm kau crush dgn hayley william la kan hahah lol
But i'm so going to panggil kau ling2 sampai idk..sampai either one of us ada special someone hahaha
Oh anyway..aku sbenarnya takut mau suka kau ling2.. aku tau kau pun anggap aku kawan and so do i. Aku takut sgat bila aku suka dgn kau or vice versa sbb only akan ada 2 ending jak.. either we will end up happy together or kita akan bermusuh sampai bila2.. aku xmau ambil risiko for either one so thats y aku stick to kawan jak dgn kau even aku panggil kau ling2..
Oh..and ling2 tu sebenarnya maksud dia 'darling', bukan keling yaa.. x sampai hati aku panggil org begitu haha so racist.. but because you are so dear to me, hence, ling2.. hehehe
Ok ling2.. pls la..pls stay in my life sampai bila2 💕
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