To Ling2

Dearest ling2..

I know it's only been a while, but thank you for existing in my life ya..

Ling2.. i don't know how to put this, but i'm so glad to have you in my life. It's like you are bringing sunshine to my world when i thought it'll never appear again. You made me smile when i thought i couldn't smile again..

Kau tau ka ling2 ? Semenjak kau datang dlm hidup ku kan, i started to found myself again. Aku start bangun balik dari the jail that i've been trapped in. And aku pun xtau from where d hell you showed up.. mcm telampau random ba..padahal aku x cari kau pun..and now kau adalah org yg paling aku cari and look forward to everyday. As if like, esok aku akan jumpa kau lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi..

Aku pun xtau ling2 whether aku suka kau or x sebenarnya.. but aku happy sgt2 bila dgn kau.. yes ling2.. ini la yg aku cari..aku ingatkan bila aku dgn c mus getback dulu, i tot i will be happy tpi aku x pernah rasa sehappy ini..

And i realized aku jadi bahagia begini bila aku start suda baking balik.. sumpah aku lama gila x rasa kepuasan bila baking yaa.. dulu yes aku rasa puas gila tpi after some unfortunate events came, passion tu hilang sikit demi sikit.. then you showed up in my life, and brought light into me back..

Aku pernah try mau cari pengganti c mus dlm hati ku or just to find someone utk bawa aku bahagia balik.. aku start rapat dgn c hafiz amat, go to random blind date..but none of it works.. si hafiz aku mmg x boleh go.. mcm teda click aku rasa..cukup bila dia boleh jadi telinga ku seja..sbb aku rasa mau ada org dgr luahan ku.. and aku xmau sembarang org..tpi sampai situ jak la.. aku bukan mau guna2 kan c hafiz, but that's how i see him.. mmg itu la dia di mata ku..

Where as you ling2.. you are different.. aku x fikir pun psal c mus bila dgn kau.. aku boleh lupa utk makan ubat just bila kau wish goodnight to me.. and i feel so complete bila kau wish morning dgn aku.. mmg la aku sometimes ckp psal c mus dgn kau..tpi the truth is, i forced myself to talk abt him to you..sbb aku mau tau cemana perasaan ku bila aku ckp psal dia dgn kau.. it turned to be, aku x suka. I don't like ckp psal dia dgn kau sbb aku rasa buang masa. Bagus lagi aku merepek2 dgn kau pastu kau pun melayan jugak hahahah

Ling2, i'm not saying i like you.. aku pun xtau aku suka kau or not..serious aku xtau..tpi the crush yg aku keep mentioning to you is actually you. Cuma yalah..crush tu crush aja deh hahaha mcm kau crush dgn hayley william la kan hahah lol

But i'm so going to panggil kau ling2 sampai idk..sampai either one of us ada special someone hahaha

Oh anyway..aku sbenarnya takut mau suka kau ling2.. aku tau kau pun anggap aku kawan and so do i. Aku takut sgat bila aku suka dgn kau or vice versa sbb only akan ada 2 ending jak.. either we will end up happy together or kita akan bermusuh sampai bila2.. aku xmau ambil risiko for either one so thats y aku stick to kawan jak dgn kau even aku panggil kau ling2..

Oh..and ling2 tu sebenarnya maksud dia 'darling', bukan keling yaa.. x sampai hati aku panggil org begitu haha so racist.. but because you are so dear to me, hence, ling2.. hehehe

Ok ling2.. pls la..pls stay in my life sampai bila2 💕