it started out well..yalah even aku jak yg repeat tahun pun, but it wasn't that bad at all..still jumpa akk2 DSA yg byk tolong aku especially kak izan yg byk tolong bagi chair masa hari2 kritikal.. mau buat cemana, klu Allah mmg ckp bukan rezeki, bukan la tu rezeki ku. Usaha la cemana skli pun, if it's not meant to be, it will not be.
Aku belajar sesuatu dari semua ni.. Ling2 pernah cakap "Jangan pernah salahkan takdir.. n jgn kasi biar "kalau laa dulu, kalau laaa" ". Aku sentap kejap.. belum pernah lagi org ckp bgitu sama aku.. mmg la wina ada juga ckp benda yg sama..tpi aku rasa mcm x menyentap pulak.. skli ling2 yg ckp bgitu, baru aku tersedar sikit. yalah mmg la maksud dia tu psal c musbi..but somehow masa dia ckp tu kan, is exactly apa yg aku mau dgr.. org kata perfect timing la.. and then i get to know him more.. dia punya lifestyle, dugaan hidup dia.. aku rasa dugaan dia lagi besar dari apa yg aku hadap ni.. kecik seja ba ni masalah ku., yg penting buang seja org2 toksik dari hidup ku ni.. buang seja dorg for good insyaAllah settle my problem. as for him, it was bigger than that..even masa aku tulis ni pun, aku x habis fikir lagi..
aku impressed gila how dia handle masalah dia tu.. yalah maybe still jajal2 jugak la tapi dia buat mcm benda tu kecil seja..tpi bila kau fikir balik,, Allahu.. aku xtau cemana dia bole jadi sekuat tu.. dia sangat kuat la sumpah.. kalau aku jadi dia ni, mmg aku suru parents ku ksi kawin aku jak..nasib aku perempuan..klu dia? mana boleh.. arghh aku menaip sambil fikir ni pun stress aish !
And you dont meet people by accident. Aku percaya benda ni. Bila aku fikir balik kan, aku xtau how did me and ling2 end up rapat and how did i ended up panggil dia ling2 hahahaha (sorryy,,tapi comel sangat la ling2 tu..sis kenot) and aku jumpa dia dkt the very right moment.. well not exactly jumpa la..cmon la we've known each other since 2011 hahaha (7 years? 😁) arghh read abt him la dkt previous post,.and NO WE ARE NOT DATING. I don't have a crush on him and so does him. again.. WE ARE NOT IN LOVE, DATING OR BLABLABLA LOVEY DOVEY STUFFS tu noo we are not !
fine.. enuf laa abt ling2.. suda la panggil org ayam tadi.,. eee 😒😒😒
actually kan, aku malas mau post psal benda2 dental or study stuffs dlm sini.. expressing them buat aku tambah stress pulak.. hahaha.. but i would like to thank all those people yg bagi support dgn aku throughout this time..insyaAllah. i'll come back stronger..
X semua benda di dunia ni jadi atas kehendak kita. Jangan pernah salahkan takdir. Once you accept how things are meant to be, then that is when you'll be happy with what Allah has gave you. Take a deep breath and be happy ! 💗💗💗 insyaAllah things will work out well.. insyaAllah fir ! believe in yourself !
esok aku ada appointment dgn psy, so let's see la how it goes.. to be honest, aku sebenarnya takut bila aku stop makan pill tu, depression ku akan dtg balik.. skrg ni pun dia ok sbb meds tu and of coz sbb ling2 ada with me.. ling2 yg bagi motivation supaya x makan pill lagi. tapi what if one day ling2 left me again? than that'll be sangatlah ugly and hmm.. astaghfirullah firzanah !
ingat ! ingat ! ingat ! tangan yang berpaut pada hati manusia akan jatuh, tapi tangan yang berpaut pada Allah xkan pernah tersungkur ! ingat tu.. Allah akan hadirkan dia kejap jak tu fir..one day he'll leave like how things are leaving you behind.. Allah yang bagi semua ni fir..
insyaAllah..i can do this !👍👍👍✊✊✊
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